Hey everyone!!! It's christmas!! Just wanted to say merry merry christmas!!

*Sigh* please ignore this I think I'm being emotional for nothing.... but...
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I hide my face
I stare at the ground
I’m all, alone
I feel an unknown pain
I suffer from something that can’t be healed
No one would care
I don’t want to be a burden
So I hide everything

You think I’m always happy
Just look at me
Look at me closely
Under all my fake happiness
You can still see it
The hidden part I don’t show
But I know you don’t care
The world doesn’t need someone as useless as me
They ask why I’m talking like this
They say I was always happy
I can’t remember any time when I truly felt happy
At least until back when I was told that phrase
The phrase that started this pain
The phrase that made me realize
Made me realize I’m just a pathetic puppet
I’m just a useless toy

“I’m tired of you! Why are you even my daughter?!”
The words that made my heart ache until now
The words that made that came out of the mouth of someone I loved
Yeah they may be pathetic little words to you
But for a delicate person they will cause wounds that will never heal
I know you don’t see me as that but inside
Inside that happy exterior you see before you there really is a delicate being
I try to hide it but at times it will surface
That is a reason why I only write these poems
The only way I can let my feelings out
The only way I can keep my other self a secret
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just some issues with parents last night...... You know you try really really hard to make them happy, your so eager to please...... but when they go bad dog or “I’m tired of you! Why are you even my daughter?!” it hurts.

Okay everything I smile about is not al fake being around people I love and laughing and stuff I'm really happy..... Though.... I don't want to change who I am, I guess you can say I'm selfish and I want to keep the times I'm really happy about.... and if I change who I am I'm afraid that I'll loose that.

Well hello there. just thought I'd say hi.

Quickie updat with life I"M NOT SICK! XD lols my last journal entry said I was sick and well.... I'm not!! hehe been abit crazy with school so haven't been able to change it hehe.

Ugh..... I'm not feeling that good today.... think I'm coming down with some cold or something TT______TT. When that happens I'm usually at a block for inspiration. Bleh..... I wanna draw though! Quick Someone tell me what to draw! I want something challenging though and interesting! O_o

» My Top Ten Movies:

- Ponyo
-LOTR
-Advent Children
-The Game
-23
-Coraline
- Howls Moving Castle
-Million Dollar Baby
-Any Disney movie (most any)
-Anything my Tim Burton

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1ST : If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own journal.
2ND : TAG 7 PEOPLE AND PUT THERE ICON IN YOUR JOURNAL.
3RD : TELL THE 7 PEOPLE WHO U TAGGED THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. XD
OK LETS START!

1. Who is your celebrity crush?
I dunno...... I have none

2. What are you most excited for?
The upcomming Skillet Concert

3. What was the last thing you bought?
My dinner O_o

4. What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
today? Uhm..... the txt message that my boyfriend send me of himself.

5. Does the weather affect your mood?
Sometimes

6. Tell me 5 things you can't live without:
My family
My friends
My beliefs
My characters
My Music

7. Say something to the person who tagged you:
I love you!